Only If

The point of the knife would feel so right on her heated skin

 

Only if she pushed it deeper

 

The pills would had made her forget how she feel

 

Emotionally and Physically numb she hoped to be

 

The fire that would have burned her skin

 

Only if she had ignited the flame

 

The burning sensation she would feel

 

Only if she had some alcohol to drink

 

The vibe of flying she would sense

 

Only if she took drugs that would kill

 

The wind hitting her face

 

Only if she jumped the bridge

 

The train she would have been under

 

Only if she took that last step

 

The rough rope that would have choked her

 

Only if she moved the chair

 

The tears that fall from her eyes day and night

 

Shows the pain she tries to hide

 

The facade of smiles and laughter

 

Are only for display

 

She wonders to herself everyday

 

But there is no explanation

 

She only ends up with

 

ONLY IF.... </3

 

Remember Me

Where did you go?

   Why did you leave?

       Will you ever come back?

 

Were the times we had nothing?

Do you miss our game time?

When we use to dance?

            Where did the memories go?

Down the drain, mixed with other forgottens…..

 

Do you remember me?

The color of my eyes?

My heartfelt laughter?

Do you think I’ve grown taller since you last saw me?

 

If asked if I remember you the answer is yes……

Your brown eyes… Dark brown eyes

Your bald head, that I fervently tried to shine to perfection….

The Tiger necklace with the missing ruby… You know the one that I’d hit every time i ran into your arms for a hug…

And the fading spades tattoo….

I also remember you toothy smile...That I’d never forget since its always due to inheritance

 

I wish you would come back…

But that may only happen when you remember me…

Please remember me