The point of the knife would feel so right on her heated skin
Only if she pushed it deeper
The pills would had made her forget how she feel
Emotionally and Physically numb she hoped to be
The fire that would have burned her skin
Only if she had ignited the flame
The burning sensation she would feel
Only if she had some alcohol to drink
The vibe of flying she would sense
Only if she took drugs that would kill
The wind hitting her face
Only if she jumped the bridge
The train she would have been under
Only if she took that last step
The rough rope that would have choked her
Only if she moved the chair
The tears that fall from her eyes day and night
Shows the pain she tries to hide
The facade of smiles and laughter
Are only for display
She wonders to herself everyday
But there is no explanation
She only ends up with
ONLY IF.... </3
Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
Will you ever come back?
Were the times we had nothing?
Do you miss our game time?
When we use to dance?
Where did the memories go?
Down the drain, mixed with other forgottens…..
Do you remember me?
The color of my eyes?
My heartfelt laughter?
Do you think I’ve grown taller since you last saw me?
If asked if I remember you the answer is yes……
Your brown eyes… Dark brown eyes
Your bald head, that I fervently tried to shine to perfection….
The Tiger necklace with the missing ruby… You know the one that I’d hit every time i ran into your arms for a hug…
And the fading spades tattoo….
I also remember you toothy smile...That I’d never forget since its always due to inheritance
I wish you would come back…
But that may only happen when you remember me…
Please remember me